... starting to get bored with my current job... nothing more for me to learn... I guess i'm really not a typical guy who enjoy a desk bounded job... working from 8:30am ~ 6:00pm. Waiting for the money to be banked in, and sit there and be contented.

I still longed to go back to teaching... rushing from classroom to classroom. Never at my desk. Interacting with my students and teaching them... Seeing the current economic situation... I doubt I will be able to get into NIE again. Haiz. Everyone is rushing into teaching because it a golden rice bowl. Not because they a have passionate to teach rather to secure a comfortable figure in their bank account...

Maybe I should try to apply again this year for teaching post. At least there is no harm trying since I have a perm job now... if I get in it will be a bonus, if not I still have my job to fall on to...

New Domain:- Melanie
Newly Plugged:- Euphemia

... Just finished reading an article from the Streats. "Predators on the Web" written by Khushwant Singh. He tried his hands on the Internet Relay Chat, masquerading as Michelle, 15. The moment 'she', typed "GIRL, 15, wants to chat." within seconds 'she' received 8 replies. Aging from the youngest 17 to the oldest 29.

All with hidden agenda... the motive is to get close and personal... physically.

It's is so absurd...!!!

I had tried going to the IRC when I was younger... more for the experience and fun... After a few rounds, I discovered it's not really fun after all...
" ... how do I noe that the person is telling the truth..."

One of my frens commented that is really fun and through that he got himself a girlfriend... I had the opportunity to see his girlfriend once. Quite an attractive gal... but I still doubt do such relationship really bloom from that...

Thus it spells the end of my Internet Relay Chat...

However, I still avid user of ICQ... most of the time, it chatting with people I noe one way or another. There are only a few names which are from overseas... I will delete them after awhile if there isn't anymore communication.

Recently added MSN messager... but I only used it mainly for file transfer.

Overall, I still think face to face communication is the best. Even though our technology has advanced so much that we are just an email or a connection away.

"Hi, I'm Angel from channel Singapore IRC. Are you Takashi20?"

"Huh? I'm sorry you got the wrong person but I'm Ah Boy21. Hey, how about we go for a drink at Mount Faber?"

"Sure."

*Evil sleazy grin*

...weekends are always gone with a blink of an eye. How come weekdays don't happen in such a way... hmph.

Anyway, I still glad that I only have 5 days week. Some others have 5 1/2 days. I ought to count my blessing... which I do. Thank God.

Saturday was one of those dayz, which I am aimless without any activities packed from morning till late... it rarely happened to me... which I think it's gd. I'm always so busy going from one activity to another. Meeting so and so... blah blah blah.

I went home after visiting the open house of ITE Tampines... wah the campus is well facilitied. Similar to that of polytechnic. ITE students those days are no longer backdated... Praise God for that. I felt the taxes payer's money is well spent. At least for my own point of view.

Went home, after pillioning Ah San to his band practise.

Wondering around the house aimlessly. Dun noe what to do, switch on the computer dun noe where to surf to... decided to start exercising... after finishing it still felt something was amiss.

Then a still quiet voice... from back of my head pondered me to take stock of my life... sitting in the living room, reflecting... then God review one sin after another sin that I have not given up. Pride was the root of my refusal to surrender my desires...

I was battling within my mind... "No, God! Anything but not this!","No, this is so unfair... how can you point to me, the thing that is so dear to my half." Just like a little child refusing to hand over the little candy within his hand to his daddy. "You can have my spiderman action figure or my Transformer but not my Papa smurf!"

I realised that everyone of us are one way or another turned to like a little child when we refused to give up certain things in our life...

What an irony~! When I grew older I grew younger in my reasoning sometimes. Anyway, have about 4 hours of praying and struggling... ended off with singing praises and playing the guiter to the Lord till my fingers were numbed.

Yes. I had surrendered them all

Sunday's sermon concides very nicely with what I did on Saturday evening. Pastor David had delivered the message extremely well... it spoken directly to me.... Dun think I can finished typing the whole sermon out...

Basically, God challenged me to give up my life afresh... meaning I have to be vulnerable. Allowing Him to bestow any kinds of trials and temptations in order that I can grow in my character...

For some of you may not understand by such terms... well it's one of those ways my God used to make me grow as a christian. If you have read my testimony, you will understand that I wasn't a goodie two shoes. Instead, I was a vagular brat, a gone case... etc. The Lord had redeem me from the dark pit... to where I am now. Even though, I had turn over a new leaf... there are still many areas in my life need improvement. Year 2003 will be indeed a wonderful and fruitful year for Raymond to grow in his walk with the Lord.

I remembered telling God that I want to develop myself further... I think He remembered my words... in order for me to be a good boyfriend or husband in the future. I need to change to be a more godly man with good character.

Thank God for His timing intervention. I desire the woman of my life to come... but I desire God even more...

Newly plugged Dawn

... Hooray!!! Finally end of the week liao… Had my tutorial class yesterday. I realized that there were so many things I need to read up and used my brain my juice on. However, I’m glad that I am able to study despite there were many people out there who can't study due to finanical difficulties.

Studying part time requires a great amount of discipline. How I wish I need not work... and have loads of cash to go overseas study. However, that not the case... May if I strike 4D or Toto then that will be wonderful. Then again, I don't gamble on these... not b'coz I'm a Christan, is that I don't believe if there is such a thing called lady luck is on my side. I'm one of those who need to work diligently and save up.

So what will you guys be doing later in the evening?

I will be down at Geylang for dinner with my army kakis. One of them is celebrating his birthday tonight. He's single and available. Any takers? He's a nice chap I think the only shortcoming is he is vertically challenged.

Later they will down at Mdm Wong 1, drinking and enjoying themselves... I will not be going. Had enuff of this kind of lifestyle... drinking and dancing, dancing and drinking... getting myself high which I rarely do b'cos I believe in keeping myself sober lest I do something outergous.

Will be joining another group of friends to chill out with my Teh or Kopi-O. More healthy then the "What time is it?" beverage or Letter 'E' with '33' transparent liquid. *Squeezing my fats from my waist* the result of drinking too much of such fluids... ha ha ha...

I rather get fat by eating more prata than drinking those substances which are gone the moment I visit the "To Let" with the 'i'. At least these prata gives more energy than the substances which get me high for the night and hangover for the day...

Whichever you choose, remember to take at a moderate amount. Don't abuse your body K. Enjoy your wonderful and blessed weekends!

"Give this man a Teh-O!!!"

… Had being extremely busy for the last one week, Kinda of emotionally and mentally down… But thank God, I’m not heart-hardened.

The whole week passed by so swiftly, almost lost track of what’s going on with my life… Even my weekends were gone within the blink of an eye… a sudden sense of dreadfulness to go back to work rose out from the corner of my heart. The similar dreadfulness when I need to book in after enjoying my long weekend during my army days. The only difference is I’m wearing my civil clothes than army no. 4.

… Ok enough of the dreadful feeling. Need to snap out of it…

Sunday
Finally, able to invited Li Wei to my church service after much schedule and reschedule. Invited Lynn and Peiwen to visit my church as well… I was thankful that they were being ministered by the Sermon given by Pastor Tony on Amos 5 and 6. Seek God and Seek Good. The sermon had impacted me as well.
I ought to seek God with a heart of repentance and reverence. Seek Good with a heart without those empty rituals and self-righteousness.

As follower of Christ, I must be a good steward of the possessions God had given me… I can’t serve God with the concept of Seek God plus other gods. Indeed, one of those things I should be careful of is money. I shouldn’t base my security on it. I bring nothing to this world, hence I cannot bring anything away from this world when I return to dust… He gave my job, talent, money… etc as a privilege for me to use not to be possessed.

May God be the glory~!

Chicago
Those who had not watched the show ought to see it!!! It’s definitely worth your $8.50 if you are a person who enjoys musical. Btw, you some of you don’t know… Chicago is a stage musical turn big screen. Overall, it’s entertaining… except the censored making the story line a bit weird with cut here and there in the initial part.

How’s your weekends, bloggers?

Newly plugged Sha and Karene.
New Domain Rainia and Yanz.